I’ve been thinking a lot about organ transplants the last few days. I’m not really sure why to be honest, as I don’t qualify for either the heart or kidney transplant lists.
But I’ve found myself really wanting to encourage people to discuss the issue with their families, because even though you might not want to think about it, should the worst happen, it’s a bloody hard decision for your family to make on your behalf. And the sad truth is, many people refuse to agree to their loved ones being used for organ donation, because at the time that they are asked, they are in a place of grief and shock where they just want to keep their loved one how they know them.
Not making it clear what your wishes are means that instead of potentially saving someone’s life, your healthy organs will go to waste. And that makes me a little bit sad to be honest.
Personally I find the concept of a heart transplant quite strange. More so than a liver or a kidney. Even though the logical part of me knows that, at the end of the day it is really just a physical organ like any other, the illogical part considers it to be, well…the heart of me.
Think about it, how many sayings revolve around the heart? ‘She has a good heart’, ‘Listen to your heart’, ‘The heart wants what the heart wants’…What if that heart isn’t really yours? Would it change some fundamental part of you?
I know that even when I had frequent blood transfusions, I could feel my body reacting to this new blood as if it was a stranger that shouldn’t be there. I could feel it in my veins, and interestingly with the testing machine I use, I have shown up issues that I know are not mine if I test myself after a transfusion – is this the energy of the bloods previous owner?
The most dangerous thing about any organ transplant, but especially the heart, is the risk of rejection. Your body KNOWS this thing doesn’t really belong to it and acts like it is an alien, desperately trying to remove it and make you you again. So even though it’s there to save you, quite often the new organ is actually what kills you.
So I have been wondering lately whether a new heart would change who I am. Would I suddenly start liking Marmite and Celine Dion? (god forbid not!) There are so many tales of things like this happening, or even of people falling in love with the donors previous partner, that try as I might I can’t think of the heart as a purely physical object. It is made up of cells which hold the very essence of you.
Would I have a heart transplant if I could though? Probably, if I had exhausted all other possibilities. I think it would take a long time for that heart to feel like mine though…if it ever did. Would I be less me? I hope not. But in a strange way I’m quite curious to find out…
So, what do you think? Is the heart just a physical organ, or would having someone else’s make you different to who you were before?